sad D:

And i'm really-really sad D:

to fellow earthlinks :

although i went out with aiiha again, half of my body is very sad .
i got an sms from my lil brother that my ayyub is now gone , and forever won't be coming back .
even as i'm writing this tears fell from my eyes to my cheeks .
and i would be kind of inactive for a few days , as i just need to have some momment to think .
i have prayed alot for my lil ayyub to be back to normal ,
but my prayed answered,although i did not get what i wanted but atleast ayyub went to heaven .
tommorow after i followed my lil brother go to his schll,i'm gonna rushed to the pet hospital and see him for the last time .
i hope ayyub will be fine living alone, without any family to take care of him .
[heart pain]
its sad when i lose something so closed to me .
well the cheer aiiha gave me last for seconds, but the lost i had will never be healed .
i'll be putting lil pictures of him .
& how i wished he was alive, no other cats could replace him .

goodbye forever~