stress

hello ;DDDDDD

fcuked up + stress .

i wrote this stupid blog , the same post and i have to write again.

because my granfather just off the switch before i even save it ,aaaarrrgghhhh !

i got so many things to talk about .

friends,studies,school,teachers .

it's the happening in my life .

its tearing my friendshp apart and also it ruins my studies .

once i thought my brother to have patient and don't get angry easily as last time he used to have anger manangement problems , but now it comes around and its me .

my brother thought it back to me , i can't think starigght nowadays .

i'm always moody , oh brother .

never tinking straight leads me to a wrong path where i will never be happy in all decisions i make .

damn , school been damn anoyying .

i have to attend this and that , blablablabla .

teachers been nagging at me .

meet the parents coming and my mum doesn't want to go , cause they"ll be talking the same old crapp things ,too bad i will have to attend .

mr ng wants to complain about my behavior of coming late to school .

[dah tak cukop ke , my father wakes me up nowadays]

and ms marianna gonna called parents about why i nvr sign the history paper .

[hey i got a valid reason for that]

and for that mum has to attend that bullshit .

i feel like school not making me happier , and i feel like my head been cut off .

results about test aren't good enough , gosh !

i want good marks not just a pass , but a pass with flying colours .

i need to concentrate more on studying in class , even though the environment sucks .

and alot of things distratct me easily .

even though i have a tutor who teaches me maths,science&english .

that also if i listen, and who going to teach me geography,history,mother tounge .

arrrgghhhhh,

how ? help me !

i needa guidance , and for those other 3 subjects the geo and all .

i need a very clever senior or someone to help me !

then thats how i'm gonna pass my exams .

i will never brake that promise i made with my mum .

then lately my friendship with 'them' are getting far apart .

i know myself more then you guys know , so don't judge .

and to make things worst you guys said my 'ex' name just to hurt my feelings , gosh !
[for the first few days]

do you even thing i care , i don't even have feelings for that guy anymore .

i don't even notice him in school anymore , even if he notice me would i be ?

i have no feelings for that stupid guy anymore .

[niy bukan cari pasal untk org yg terase]

aaarrrrrghhhhh !!!!!!
stupidstupidstupid , i feel like even if we promise about not talking about 'our'

ex's when there's no me , korang dah start bobal pasal 'mereka'the instincts told me so.

aaaaarrrgggghhhh , a knife just stab from the behind of my back.

okay let's not talk about friends .

it's useleesss , the only one i truly trust is rainbow .

and to make you guys happier i will change my "about me " section since your not happy with it .

fine then !?

short,simple and sweet hope ya like it .

you say me kindda bitchy , you don't know me now .

i'm still me its just you never notice it , you are truly blind .

only wanie thinks im the me me !

okayyy whatever afiqah , shut your mouth .

love has been nothing to me lately .

since i'm so stress and i can't think right i don't even think about 'you' anymore .

what the helll, this isn't the right time to talk about cruches and all .

and i'vve been smsing people whom i'm damn close to .

and you adhiko !!!

your stupidstupid pranks made me so pissed .

although me+you+wanie=[kawan sejati]

and i don't wanna lose you .

aarrggghhhhh , i really need HELP !

CAUSE THROUGH FRIENDSHIP THER WILL ALWAYS

BE OBSTACLES .

AND FOR LOVE THAT WILL HAVE TO WAIT .

AND TO STUDIES , I NEED MORE HELP IN THAT .

CAUSE I WILL SURVIVE IN EVERY

CAHLLENGE THAT ENCOUNTERS ME .