Sort of depression

I really don't know if i could make it for my O's. I have doubts,i'm afraid.I'm afraid to go ITE. It's going to be 1 am in the morning,and i've yet to sleep nor study my geography.Somebody save me from this misery that'll last for about 2 weeks. This is my final stretch for this year,InsyAllah god can help me with this messy situation. The reason why i'm afraid is because i really don't want to appear like some gangsta shit wearing ITE uniform and all.Streotype much?I wished i was hardworking,i really wish i was :( 

I really admire you.

xoxo