So today I shall update about myself. So i never actually told you guys how much points i get for my N'levels because i was really shameful of my self. It took about 2 weeks to get over the failure of mine.So......jengjengjeng....I got 21 points. Nothing special,it's just failure.And you guys do know how much i dislike ITE. Guess what?! I'm in ITE now, ITE college east. And i'm in the nursing course. So....everything that i never wanted it to happen,happened!My end of 2011 was pretty much screwed. But you know what,I MUST SAY I NEVER REGRET SCHOOLING IN ITE. The whole perception of Its The End is not within me anymore. I totally see a different outlook of the school.Of course at first i was like "why am i here,i don't belong here and stuffs....." But after few weeks i feel more and more welcome. But i still feel a little bit shitty though cause my friends are all going POLY except for me :/ But it's okay,there's always a reason behind everything that is happening. Anyway apart from the points thingy,I'm no longer working at Topshop Bugis since the 8th of January. I missed it ALOT. Cause i made few good friends there. Also, i'm 17 already since the 9th of January. HAHA, and it was the second memorable birthday ever! My bestfriends4life surprised me at my doorstep with a swensen's cake.The most awesome part was they actually plan it with my mum and brothers and also my bestfriends got along pretty well with each other. What i'm trying to say is...... i have 2 clique. One of it is...Darwisma,Aiiha,Irwani and Naz and the other one is Irene and Yana. Soooo...actually both of my clique aren't actually talking that much.BUT FOR MY BIRTHDAY,all of them surprised me!!! I was extremely happy that night (BEST FEELING EVER!!!!!).Actually,on that very day i wasn't expecting any surprises since i'm in a different school.And since i was really sad that day :/. Moving on,i'm gonna get real now. To be honest i've never like to tell my friends about my personal family issues only my bestfriends know about this,but i've got to make it clear now.I'll start it off from here. (Ouuuh rhymes) So when i was 7 years old,my parents divorced.Obviously during that point of time i didn't know what was divorce.My mum told my brothers and i that she was going to America for work.And we had to stay with my father side of the family. As i grow older,i realized that my brothers and i weren't happy with staying over with our father's side so we actually told my mum everything.And she came back to Singapore to fight for her rights on taking the child custody. So when i was 11 years old i started living with my mum,still do meet my father whenever. If you're thinking that i hated my father,you got that wrong.I just DISLIKE his family that's all.Anyway when i turned 15 my mum re-married with another man and he became my step father and i now have step siblings.Hate the fact that i have step siblings but i can't changed it.So from being the only girl in the family,now i have another extra 3 steps sibling and 1 more sibling soon to come. Somehow this blog entry made me seem like i have a deprived childhood.But no,i did not.I never missed any shows from the 1990s......Like fairly odd parents,lizzie mc guire,sabrina the half witch....Yeah those kinda shows. Still have vivid memories of playing block catching and stuffs.So my childhood memories are like any other 1990s kids (: Internet wasn't "something" back then. Anyway my step father is a good man,he's trying he's best to changed my brothers and i. To start praying and stuffs,though i feel more caged like at times but i think he's alot more better than my real dad. But obviously i would choose my real dad in any circumstances.But i love both dad's!!!! And to be frank i am not a good muslim,i'm not proud of what i've become. But i have this mentality whereby i have to make full use of my teenage years.That's why,i am what i am today. (get it?) I'm slowly starting to pray.So yeahp,now you know one of my deepest secret that i have to tell everyone. I can't stop lying to my friends. I'm just an insecure mess you see. Thank you for taking your time to read this. XOXO
P/s : As you can see......i started to get lazy and made this entry more like a summary. I'm sorry.
3 comments:
Hey! Back again! (:
awww, hey! i was from ite too, but i graduated and still make it to poly! i am sure you can do it too! i still recalled the first day, i wear that ite uniform and i get all the weird stare from people when i enter the bus, you know those kind like "What is this guy doing wearing that uniform?" haha (so i guess now you know i am a guy).
you know what? if you write more, i might just come here more often (:
like what they always say communication comes two way (:
p.s its Sabrina the teenage witch. hahaha so cute Sabrina the half witch.
HAHAHAHAHAH!!!! omg paiseh! XD clue number 1!! Just so you know,i only update my blog when i'm in the mood. (: So i hope you don't expect much from me.(if you get what i'm trying to say)
lol! and i don't go to your blog everyday to check your blog too! hahaha. teehee!
alright alright, partly cos i would be busy for this month preparing for my website to be launch (:
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