Another deprived post?

Hi hey hello! I realised that whenever i update my blog i tend to write about how my life is pretty uninteresting. Le sigh,anyway i want to tell you that i've become so freaking dark recently. And my friends noticed the difference of my skin colour. The picture above is just sunlight shining on me.LOL. 

I think i'm fine now,i can finally live my life without your existence anymore.As much as i miss you every now and then,you'd still wouldn't feel the same way for me anymore. I'm hopeless but hoping,sigh. Fuck this,i want a  part-time lover,okay no i just want someone to be around me,someone whom i can hug when i need it someone whom i can tell my secrets to.Yeah i know i have my bestfriends and all but you know that feeling when you just wanna pretend that you have a GUY to lean on to be around you to feel more loved. There's a difference when you hug a girl and a guy.Like you can feel the difference and hugging someone of the opposite sex feels better. It's like there's this contented feeling.Do you guys feel that way?I hope i'm not the only one feeling this way. URGHH,why do i always seem desperate to have someone in my life??? whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.................Sighhhhh...............i just miss being in love.It's one of the best feeling anyway. Fuck me,i should stop blogging about my depriveness :/ Anyway i'm having my 3 weeks of holiday and i've not much to do. HOW BORING~ 

xoxo