Draggggg

Oh hi there,i don't really have much to blog about these days cause i'm literally living the same old routine every single day.I don't know if i should love my life because i really have nothing extra-ordinary about my life.Sucks to feel this way. I want some thrills in my life,fun things i can do.I want to be loved. I mean my family loves me but i want someone that could be around me all day all night. The past is forever stuck in my head,i'm forever pretending that i'm fine and that i don't need your existence around me. I swear to god i am deprived,deprived of that one person that apparently changed my world.Call me cheesy,but he was the best shit ever happened to me. Still wondering if he feels the same way about me.Probably not,it's been 3 months since were no longer together and i've been trying so hard to move on. Anyway i have 2 videos of us,i shall edit it one day and show you how cute i am. And him. HAHAHA,i miss him that much. This is my second time trying to move on the first  one took me a year and 3/4 months. Hopefully this second one won't take that long. Maybe i asked for too much. I should really stop hurting myself,but the past is the only reason why i'm still here,It's like i'm only living for the past. Ahhh i'm talking bullshit,sigh. :/