Unhappy

These days,I've been trying so hard to stay happy and be happy. I just can't seem to be happy anymore. And i don't know what's missing in my life that's causing me to feel this way. Life's been pretty rough for me,or you can say i made it rough myself. My feelings are pretty complicated and it sucks. Everything just basically sucks for me. I've been missing out on alot of things lately. All i want to do actually is to just shop and shop and shop. But the thing is i need money to do that. But where can i get them $$$$$. Apart from my daily allowance. Well atleast shopping makes me happy somehow. Weird but true.....school's starting and this coming term i have to prepare. Because its the last term for me to improve on my GPA before i go for my last attachment. I really have to ace in everything in order for me to go to poly. If not probably I'll have to find something else to do which I'm not so sure of yet. But probably work and get more money so i could travel. My current GPA is 2.5 but for my cumulative(overall) GPA it's 2.3. They look on our overall instead of current for me to go to poly. And that's why i have to ace everything. I really have to change my mindset and attitude for this. You know what the say in order to achieve something you've got to work hard and play hard. So I'm having my last week of term break and after that I'm back to school. Urgh seriously not excited for school because I'm pretty sure I'll be occupied. Means not gonna have my social life. Actually I've soooo much i want to blog about...but it'll all end up to my feelings and how sad am i with my life. Fuck this!!!!! Everything will get better someday for me.