I'm in a dilemma of what I should do next after nursing. I don't think I can make it to poly because right now I'm having a hard time coping with my last attachment. The nurses I'm following is such a bitch, scolding me every single day for all the tiny mistakes I do. I really can't take this anymore therefore I don't hope to pass just to get a GPA 3 atleast..... I wish I could but my guts tells me that I'm not gonna do well...... so fuck me sigh..... just wish me all the best hopefully I'll do well. It'll be sad if I just pass my last attachment because i know I am way better than this.But if so, I'm just gonna suck it up and hopefully (*cross my fingers*) my mum would let me take private os. Because even though I've not practice my basics... I believe I could atleast try and hopefully I can pass and do something for my future. There are so many things on my mind but I am extremely worried for my future mostly. Everything here in Singapore is getting expensive and it's so hard to live and survive here. Amazingly Singapore is one of the richest country, but we Singaporeans are struggling just to stay here in this tiny little dot. Anyways... life's been pretty.. I guess okay.. actually I'm not sure. If you ask me how am I doing I'll say I'm just fine but honestly I don't think I am... with all these things I want to do just for myself and for my future. But I'm scared I will fail and regret every decisions I make. My relationship with my boyfriend is getting better as days goes by....I'm glad that he understands me and encourages me to do things that I'm afraid of even though sometimes I'm being unrealistic but really he has been the most understanding person since day 1. And i will never regret. Ahhhhhh good news I'm moving in a month time. I can't wait to start a new with everything x.
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