I'm sorry for everything

"But then i realized that i was holding on onto something that didn't exist anymore. That the person i missed didn't exist anymore. People change. The things we like and dislike change, and we can wish that all day long,but it would never work."



I have no idea how should i begin this,but i'm going to do this anyway.It's like everytime i want to blogged,it will always be at the point of time when i'm at my lowest and it sucks to be me cause i can't see what's best for me. But anyway this first post of the year will be for someone who is extremely special to me and will always be. I started off the year 2013 with you but it ended too quickly and i didn't saw that coming for us,today should mark as our 8th months of knowing each other but well....it just didn't work out for us and i'm sorry. I know i've said sorry so many times but i guess this would be my last. Anyway i just want you too know that you've been great throughout the 7 months plus and you've tolerated me well enough. I can never find someone like you because honestly you loved me over and over even after  the repetition of countless of mistakes i did. I really wanted to try to make things work for us i really did but i know that i wasn't trying hard enough because i guess i was blinded by someone for awhile though. Thought i could move on just like that without you but life doesn't work that way huh? oh well...I hope you'll find someone so much better than me. I really just want you to be happy,i want to see you happy. I know you're facing alot right now and i'm sorry i couldn't be the one to make you feel better and to feel loved. I wished i could but that's all over now. I'm not asking you to come back to me,i would love to but i wouldn't want you to even come back to me. I don't want to hurt you unintentionally all over again. Like i've said,countless and billions of times...a nice guy like you deserve better. I hope when you do find someone better,i just hope that you wouldn't do the things  we did for when we're together. I know it's going to be hard for us or maybe just me,but i'm sure in the long run things will get better for us. So thank you to the one who made me happy and smiled throughout this 7 months plus,for accepting my flaws and all for telling me i'm beautiful every single day for never giving up on me for that period of time,for the endless love given. Just thank you so much for everything and i hope you don't hate me for what i did to you. I'll never regret what we had and shared because you were what i wanted in the first place. Take care of yourself and remember,i will always be a call a way if you ever need me.
xoxo